Have You Realized One Of Your Dreams?
November 16th, 2008by Deborah Dachinger
Always wanted to do a marathon but was afraid. Had no idea how. Had lots of reasons why it was a crazy idea at the time. But my insides knew I really wanted to experience a marathon — the desire was there.
I was thinking I was nuts. Thought I wasn’t enough. In so many regards. I had every reason why not to attempt doing a marathon. And not knowing how to achieve this dream, I called the L.A Marathon office and told them what I wanted and that I didn’t know how to accomplish it. They told me there was a runner’s group that met at the L.A. Police Academy every Tuesday night to train and another group called the Roadrunners to train in Venice on Saturdays. I hung up the phone, amazed those things existed. When Tuesday rolled around I did not want to go to the marathon training. I was scared. About to completely let the idea go when I begged myself to just please go to the training once. Just once and if you hate it I promise you never have to go again. Like a parent might say to a child to help them get past their fear ~ this was how I spoke to myself. Do this, go just this once please, and then you get to decide if this is something you want to keep doing. So I acquiesced. I went to a marathon practice at the Police Academy for the first time and I was hooked. The training was all that and more. Getting over that hump of resistance was key for me. I then trained for 8 months and completed my first marathon. Completing the marathon taught me that I am limitless and I truly can do anything I decide to do.
Best yet was the next year, when a friend convinced me to do the L.A. Marathon - again. I didn’t want to do the marathon a 2nd time but I really liked hanging out with her and decided to train again with her. Half way through training (4 months in) she dropped out. I was lost. I lost my training partner, my conversation person, my commuter ride, my reason to be doing a marathon. So I went inside myself because I knew I needed a new goal if I were to continue. I decided that since it was my 2nd marathon I’d set a goal for a new finish time for myself. I wanted to shave 30 minutes off my finish time. Marathoners know - that’s a lot of time to cut down. Still that was my goal. To accomplish that, I made friends with the fastest woman in our Saturday training group, she was a robot. She never missed a beat. I kept consistent pace with her. I was always fast and strong and pace wise inconsistent, but she was like a metronome and that was great structure for me.
Two weeks before the marathon I took a bath every night and while bathing would close my eyes and imagine myself crossing the finish line, seeing the time in lights at 30 minutes under my previous year’s time. Then I’d picture the crowd and imagine the joy and elation I felt. That was my meditation for 2 weeks before the race.
The day of the marathon came. My “robot” partner and I did well throughout the long day and all the miles. Around Mile 20 she started to lag - and I bolted forward. Inexplicably I get stronger towards the end of a marathon, as opposed to most people who are exhausted and oftentimes struggling, in those last 6 miles something happens energetically inside of me. My buddy, the “robot” could see that I was ready to take off while she had a physical need to slow down in order to make it to the end. She told me to go for it, to forge ahead on my own and finish the marathon. My feet kept going faster and faster towards the end.
A marathon is 26.2 miles. I knew at Mile 25 I was still doing well. It was a conundrum. Here I was strong and moving and although glad for that fact, I was sad that none of my friends would know to be at the finish line earlier than expected – they all knew my finish time from the previous year and they’d miss the conclusion of my race this year; they’d be there too late.
I came up the hill around the corner at the very last bend of the marathon. I was running, I was happy - the end had finally come.
And in that thick huge crowd I heard my name called out. For some amazing reason, there was my mother, right there at the final bend, watching me finish. My mother had somehow intuited that I would do well, that I’d come in earlier than expected. I don’t know how she knew but she did. And that meant everything to me - to have a witness to my moment. I was yelling as I came around the corner and saw her there.
I crossed the 26.2 mile finish line and burst into tears. The volunteers came to take the chip off my running shoe and they were concerned I might be injured because of my crying. But I was not hurt - I was happy. I was amazed, thrilled, and shocked. As I came through the finish line I looked up at the lit numbers, just as I had in all my meditations — to see that I had taken one full hour off the finish time of my 2nd marathon. I’d surpassed the 30 minutes I’d hoped for and came through the finish line minus 60 minutes under my 1st marathon time. That’s why I was crying; I was blown away by what I had committed to and created.
The power of dreams and the force of making them come true is humbling and informing of our greatness. We are so much bigger than we give ourselves credit for.
Deborah Dachinger hosts the weekly inspirational “Dare to Dream” radio show which hosts interviews with intriguing guests who fulfill their dream and purpose. “Dare to Dream” is on 99.3 KCLA FM, in Los Angeles, California, and is considered one of the most popular American Radio Network shows on air today. She can be reached through her website at www.DeborahDachinger.com